when life takes a turn … a little update.
it’s been a minute since i got on here. I’m in transition. a phase I didn’t see coming. a road I hadn’t imagined for myself.
my awakening is more calm now. my root chakra is integrating after almost 2 years of awakening. I love it.. it feels good. integrating. strange at the same time.
everything I wanted for so long just seems like something outside of me. and whenever I’ve reached for something outside of myself, I realised that I still felt hollow, even though “I was living the dream life”.
yes, having m$ney, being able to travel the world, get nice dinners, shopping whenever I want … It’s super nice. super fun. and it’s a privilige that not everybody’s able to experience. It is something I wish for everyone to experience..
but it is not the cause of happiness to have money in your bank account.
at least for me.
this year taught me so damn much. I went from craving freedom, solitude, grinding hard, almost fighting for my dreams; only to burn the f*ck out & realize i had no energy left to enjoy my life.
I was tired. dissatisfied. constantly worried if I’d get to the next phase. Manifest the next big thing. I wanted a mansion. it had to be millions of dollars. I was rigidly manifesting, checking the web for the next Home for sale..
whenever I reached a new level or goal, I’d think “ok what’s next” - “let’s clear the next trigger” - “what’s the limiting belief holing me back from the next big thing”.
constantly reaching for a new home, when all I really deeply craved was my inner home. structure. routine. work that makes me happy. friends. family. my boyfriend. pets. people- being f*cking Normal…
As if it wasn’t enough to live the exact dream that I was standing right inside. I woke up in Miami. It was my home. I thought it’d be the city where I finally made it.
I guess it still was..
But all of a sudden, that adventure wasn’t aligned anymore.
It stopped feeling welcoming and aligned - not because of anyone or anything.. but because my soul had experienced all that it needed from there.
But when I realized that part of the Miami adventure was over, I was shocked.. Because I wasn’t as present as I could have been. I didn’t enjoy as much as I could. I sank. I worked. Too hard. For a dream I thought would fulfill me. Bring me joy and happiness. & it’s not that it didn’t - but the chapter is over now, and what I learnt the most is to f*cking enjoy what’s right in front of you..
‘Cause if you stay inside your mind, don’t enjoy what you have, you’ll never be able to enjoy what your mind thinks will do it for you.
Being present and enjoying the now is a skill. And you have to bring yourself back to the now, instead of comparing it to how much better things would’ve been, if only this & that would change ..
Life took a turn for me - and it’s teaching me presence. I hope you’ll take that away from this post too… To enjoy what you have. Cause there’s a version of you, who once used to pray fo the exact life you’re living right now.
If you read this far, thank you. <3 :)
I’ll be back with exciting news soon. The adventure doesn’t end here.
The $OUL. Arts Studio opens soon, and I can’t wait to get settled into the most amazing and present times with all my art-lovers out there:)
In the meantime; You Can Get On The Waitlist & Be The First To Know When The Store Opens Again in December!
